Though this song is an excellent song about fame and fans etc. The whole obsession over celebrities makes me want to puke tbh.
BUT…It’s funny how sometimes I find relations to myself and my diagnoses in songs. I am thinking about rewriting the chorus and part of the first verse (who knows maybe the whole song) or using it as a sample to inspire some own autistic poetry/lyrics. Here were my thoughts I wrote quickly down just listening to this song on my ipod. 🙂
They only see the light, but look behind the camera
They only see who they want us to be, but look inside our hearts and minds
And then you’ll find an answer on the other side
And then you will find the real answers.
Look closer, you will find a message for the dreamer
The grass ain’t always greener on the other side
I love the last two lines of the chorus and my only thought on it is I have tried being neuro-typical most of my life and trust me it is not greener tbh.
Rappers are held is such a high regard while we fall
Autistics are held to such a high standard while we fall.
It’s ’cause we forget the fans are the reason why we’re stars
It’s because we forget who we were meant to be is why/where we’re safe and happy.
The fans also are not perfect, keep in mind
The professionals are not perfect, keep in mind. The most experienced people who can share and help you when it comes to autism is those who are actually autistic.
Not to treat me like a science project and not a person
We are not science projects to mold into your liking or your world, we are human beings.
I lend my respect to the game ’cause it teach you wisdom
I share and lend my voice to society in hopes my experiences can teach you wisdom.
Your friends expect you to change, so they treat you different
Society expects us to change and treats us differently.
Through all my fame in my life I have grown
Through my experiences and life I have grown and learn to accept myself. (It was through being myself, accepting myself and not through any therapies or faking to be neurotypical)
If my wife decide that she gone, I might wanna die alone
Drawing a blank on this line so skip. If my husband dies, I will die alone tbh?
I’m a be honest ’cause every rapper alive
I’m going to be honest because every autistic person alive
Including I, puts a persona up
Including myself puts a persona on everyday
But I promise what you seein’ has truly been me
But I promise what you see isn’t truly me.