Hello all my wonderful readers and followers!
I have missed all of your guys posts and comments! So I am back for a very short time and another life updatey post as to why I have been MIA for this past month, and how I am doing health wise. (both mentally and physically. Don’t panic though I am not sick or dying I promise!)
As I shared in my past few posts I have started my new job and have been working 5 days a week (just under full time hours) for a few weeks now. I am starting to really get to know my job and be able to work more independently. I also really enjoy my coworkers, team leads etc. However, this week or next week our department and another department are trading team leads, so I will be getting two new team leaders. I really like my team leader right now as he is always happy to help, lets me be independent and very easy going. I have met my two new team leads (one of them actually did part two of my interview for this position) and I like them so far so it shouldn’t be a bad change. It feels really good to be working again, has been a huge confident booster and I am overall happy with the job.
However, it has taken it’s toll on me mentally and physically. The combination of work itself overwhelming me and the brutal starts of 4 am have left me both physically and mentally exhausted. I would say more mentally than physically and I am sure the physical soreness or exhaustion will quickly fade away as I get use to working and getting back into shape again.
However, the physically soreness really sucks. Not only have I not worked in like 8+ months, but I have never had to lift, carry or deal with store products themselves in my past. So on top of me having to rebuild the calluses on my feet, ease back into long periods of walking/standing, I now have to build muscles and get use to working my backstock, ad products around etc. My ideal day looks like emptying the floor (truck load from the night before) pulling pallets and huge M-carts around etc, lifting and carrying numerous heavy-ish products, while trying not to break anything or knock into customers. xD Basically I am responsible for keeping track of inventory and making sure the shelves are filled with products for my aisle I was hired for. They assigned me the pasta aisle and I never thought pasta could be heavy until it comes in a case of 12-16 ish or more. Hahaha. Don’t even get me started on the pasta sauce. There is of course the normal drama and struggles that comes with any job aka lazy or stupid mofos. I absolutely cannot stand people who stalk heavier items on the very top of my m-carts when I am not working. Mainly because I have zero upper body strength. especially above my head, and have a difficult time getting the heavier products off the top especially when I can hardly reach it tbh. I am surprised to say I have yet to drop a case of pasta sauce off of the top and have it break. Etc. *knock on wood* I have however gotten over breaking my first product. Hehe. My first or second shift on my own after shadowing somebody for a week I managed to break one jar of pasta sauce. I accomplished this by lifting a case not realizing it was effing broken, but managed to save the case. So it was not too embarrassing and luckily those jitters of breaking your first products is over with. Cleaning up pasta sauce and broken glass still sucks though. xD
Since this job is so physically demanding my body and muscles have been very sore and my feet are on fire. My feet honestly feel bruised and are constantly swelling. It also feels like I may have broke one of my baby toes or underneath the toe as it is swelling and feels less than favorable even after constantly being put on ice and rested. I think it is from the combination of not doing anything to physical for months, I gained like 10-15 pounds since my last job and wearing very old shoes for a few weeks until I could buy new ones (which I still have to break in tbh) I also think getting insoles for my new shoes would help tremendously as the concrete floors doesn’t do anyone any favors. Whatever the reason may be as to why my feet have been on fire for weeks, I just hope it lessens soon as the past couple days they have been in so much pain it had me almost in tears. I have noticed though I am slowly getting back into shape, so yay for that!
I know for a fact the physical pain or exhaustion will pass eventually. Well the physical tiredness may not go away as I am a night person and it is almost impossible to readjust my routine or sleep schedule as a night owl. However, I think being tired all the time is the least of my worries. What has been and probably will continue to be a challenge with showing up to work everyday and trying to do my best is the anxiety, stress and overwhelming feelings it causes. My brain has been constantly in overdrive or somewhere else tbh. I have noticed it a lot this week and I feel like I am in some fuzzy daze all the time. It is hard to explain, but there have been days it feels like I have lost my most basic features of my brain, especially when it comes to anything social related (then again I don’t think social is a basic part of my brain tbh and thus not shocking) having to remember important shit or anything like that. Part of it is my two days off last week was crazy busy and I didn’t get any time to myself at all, and some of it is just the struggles I have to try my best to manage or overcome on the daily tbh. I thought I was a anxious wreck or felt off before this job, now it is out of control. I am hoping the more I manage a better sleep schedule and get use to this routine my anxiety will lessen over time. I have seen my schedule two weeks in advance and it is the same as my last week, so it looks like I will relatively have the same schedule. Having the same routine is a huge bonus for a person like myself and I hope it helps keep my overwhelm feelings and anxiety in check.
Minus the physical and mental exhausted, the hubby and I are really excited about the changes we have made this past month. I may have mentioned it before about the hubby getting interviewed for the same store I work at, if I didn’t..well he did and guess what? He got the job! The store director who did part two of his interview was very impressed with his maturity and past retail experience. Those who have trained him so far this week have said the same thing. I am not suppose to go into detail just how well things are going for him already and what impression he has made as it is personal info between me, him, and the store director, but basically it’s really great news. It basically looks like we have a future with this store and many opportunities to move up. I am so happy we both are making a really decent wage and between the both of us we are averaging almost 70 hours a week. I may or not pick up a shift somewhere else if I want to be closer to 40 hours or have 40 hours, but I am currently getting use to getting back into the routine of working and see how things go. The store has given me great hours so for now I want to keep my promise as open availability.
You know how I mentioned our car was going to complete crap? Well in that same week my hubby’s phone also fell in the snow and broke after a couple days of use. It was a 4 year old phone anyways. Well I got great news on both those ends. We are financing a almost brand new 2014 Chevi cruz, with only 19,000 miles and both each got a new phone for a very great deal. The monthly cost is also very cheap for what we need and we do get unlimited data. We are really enjoying the new car and phones as they are all a lot better than what we had before. Haha. The car was a bit of a headache for a few days while working out the deal. We got the car so I don’t want to go into a lot of detail, but basically a lack of communication etc and catching up with old friends last Tuesday caused both my days off and the Friday before with no down time. We spent after my shift at work until 5:30 pm at the dealership and a lot of the following Monday. Oh well, it got sorted and we got the car of our dreams really. We originally looked into the 2014 Chevi sonic, and although it had more bells and whistles I am really glad we went for the Chevi Cruz as it had less miles, more space and it still has a lot of new technology our older car didn’t. So yes between the new car, phones and new jobs the hubby and I are in a really great place. We feel like getting out on our own no longer renting his parent’s basement etc all seems very possible in the near future.
Alright, that is a lot that is new with me. Sorry for the long life update/unedited rant, but that is what happens when I take a month off blogging. Sorry guys again! I plan to get back into blogging and writing again as soon as I get a better routine and hang of my work schedule. I promise this break may continue, but it will not be permanent. At the very least I am going to make an effort to read more blogs and share comments until I can get back to more writing as well. Like always, I hope you enjoyed my post and feel free to leave your thoughts in the comment section. I am off to do chores and take a shower. Back to start another work week tomorrow…Urg. xD
Have a good week everyone!